Guilt is climbing all over me.

I'm sorry Yiying.
I'm sorry Boonyun.

I shouldn't have did that.
Now i'm feel all so guilty, sorry.
That's not a right way to treat hpys.
I'm wrong, so wrong.
Sorry.

Even if time travels back, i bet i will do the same wrong things.
Yet because of this, i learned.
Sorry.

Both of you treat me all so good,
yet when before i say those remarks on the both of you,
i didn't even bother to remember all those.
After saying behind both of your back, for that moment,
i felt so indulged because i've shared my feelings with debbie which is wrong.
What a friend am i right? I feel so sucky about myself doing this.
Apparently i don't remember i hate people doing that to me, back then.
How malicious i am.
Sorry.

I regretted not learning to accept how people are.
They're my hpys, not some strangers, just wake up.
I never want to lose any.

Sorry.

I will not cry, i just can't forgive myself.
i hate others doing that action, but yet i done it myself.
i felt so double standard.

Sorry.
What an rash act i had done, how absurd i am.

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Yiying, sorry for causing you being so stress, stress over me.
I'm a total perfectionist, although no one is perfect,
but yet, i try to give all my best to almost everything,
i dislike things hanging in the middle of the sky, i love it up in the sky,
as high as possible, as long as possible.
I should have be more sensitive towards you,
and shouldn't have made those "I still think i'm not good enough, there's still much more to improve on" comment infront of you, making you antagonised.
I'm sorry, it has been hard on you, thanks for telling me.

Everyone is good in different ways, 个有千秋.
Your forte is art and chinese, mine's not.
So don't compare me with you, and you will feel so much better.
You are good being you.
I sucks in drawing, while you are so good at it.
Yet i didn't compare, because i know that's what you're good in it.

Till now, you still care, care for me, thanks.

Boonyun, thanks for forgiving.
You even comforted me,
start conversation with me on msn, with a jovial manner.
Still being as nice as before.
You even ask me what can you change on,
what problem you caused to make me upset with you.
Why, why are you being so nice?
Why can't you hold grudges on me?

I turned back my words on you.
I shall i will be by your side 24/7,
but i talked behind you, i'm such an horrible person.

Sorry and thanks.

Thanks god, for giving 6 HPYs to me, to protect me, to comfort, to be by my side, and bear everything i've done, all those nonsense, nuisance, undemanding or even wilful actions.
i love them all.

I will prove i'm not a princess, not the all so pamper girl.

To mom,
ok, i know she wouldn't be seeing this, but i sure know my sister will.
So if you happen to pass by tell this to mom.
Something, i didn't reply you, is i'm tired of explaining, but you though i'm being wilful.
In fact, i'm just antagonise by you, you are just being so unreasonable sometimes, and this cause me not even wanting to explain for why i don't want to reply you.
I rather let you think i'm being childish or demanding than replying.
I'm sorry for showing attitude everytime.