'There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel....'
Way Back Into Love (Feat. Haley Bennett) - Hugh Grant

By being soft-hearted, I do not know whether to rejoice over it or dread it.
I refrained from talking to her, as I know she dislike me - from what she told some.
Yet, she frequently initiate conversation with me.
I replied either with a nod or by shaking my head.
Sometimes, I even acted I did not hear.
However, a pang of guilt aroused in me, I felt bad by doing so.
This sucks big time.

I forgave her countless time...
Even my worst nightmare.
Still she does it over and over again.
I'm sick and disgusted of the hypocrite act.

Ever since secondary 2, how and why did she changed drastically?

Should I forgive? or continue being mean?
I'm inept at being decisive, especially over this predicament.
I'm in need of an answer from anyone....
Help?

Elaine.